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June 27, 2006

Conquering Self-doubt

Filed under: News — chantal @ 11:35 am

I need to write more.

I need to shoot more….photographs, that is.

On Sunday, our pastor preached a sermon about not letting our insecurities weigh us down or hold us back from receiving our blessings and fulfilling our destinies. Allowing feelings of self-doubt, feelings of not being good enough, feelings like we don’t deserve success, or that success is not ours to achieve often burdens so many people of faith. But this is a lesson we all can use, Christian or not.

I often find myself plagued by these very same insecurities. More than I should, I hear the little voices in my head saying that I’m not good enough, not smart enough or not talented enough; that no one wants to hear what I have to say or that no one would understand my particular brand of art, so why bother. Too often, I have listened to those voices.

How many times have I allowed these insecurities hinder me from achieving success? I dare not count. I can’t even begin to imagine how many opportunities I have missed due to the fact that I let these feelings of self-doubt cloud my vision. It saddens me to think of where I could be right now if I only I had the courage and confidence to go forth and pursue my destiny with full vigor.

All I know now is that there is something inside of me that needs to come out. It’s been there all along, for all of my life, rumbling quietly for far too long, slowly building and gaining momentum. Certain events throughout my life have quieted this sleeping giant, but like the magma that builds pressure beneath the earth, building to a great volcanic eruption, so is this rumble from within me ready to overflow.

It’s an urge to create, to start from nothing and end with something, something that is uniquely my own, my voice, my vision, for all to see, feel, read, interpret. You may not like it, you may never understand it, but you will know that it is me. I need to write, I need to photograph everything I see, when I can’t do that I need to sketch this or that and then maybe later turn it into a painting. I don’t even care that I may be less talented than my peers. Mine is a voice that needs to be heard.

I finally feel that I have the tools at hand to conquer the demons that have held me back for so long. And now, when I look around me, I see opportunity at every turn. The sleeping giant is awake, and I’m ready to take on the task at hand. The days of making excuses for why I can’t are over. I know now that I can. And I will. And it’s not so much due to this overwhelming feeling of self-confidence, for I am still battling the feelings of self-doubt, but it is because I can no longer deny myself the destiny that is laid before me. There is something great out there for me, and it is my job, my mission to find it, to conquer it, to claim it, to achieve it.

A Fine Mess:US War Costs to Triple

Filed under: News — chantal @ 1:51 am

An AP report states that due to the annual cost of repairing and replacing equipment to US military throughout the Middle East is expected to triple.

US War spending

So let me get this straight: the cost of providing, replacing and repairing the equipment that our troops need, the very same equipment that they do not have enough of in the first place, that the DOD appears to be underfunded for, will now cost 3 times as much as in previous years?

Yeah, that makes sense. This is a smart war… really, really smart.

About as smart as the administration, itself.

I just have one thing to say…..2008 can’t get here fast enough.

June 25, 2006

I Love My Husband

Filed under: News — chantal @ 4:53 pm

After an emotional afternoon, due to circumstances I don’t have the time or energy to get into right now, my devoted husband sent this to me:

http://chantal.youaremighty.com/

It came right at a moment when I was beginning to feel inadequate, untalented and insecure. I know it’s irrational to let those insecure feelings get the better of me, but there are times, when the cards may not be in my favor, and it’s hard to ignore the voice of unreason within.

He knew exactly what I needed to hear.
God, I love that man!

June 24, 2006

A Reprise….

Filed under: News — chantal @ 12:19 am

“Just the knowing that I am part of something greater than myself is only partially fulfilling.
The rest comes from the search.

And that’s what my art is for me….a documentation of the search.

I feel like there are fragments of me scattered about. I get a sense of it sometimes through song, through dance, through literature. But I get a hold of it through my photography.

It’s in the reclaiming, that I feel most alive.”

This is from a previous post, but I thought it was worth repeating. It pretty much sums things up for me, why I do what I do.

June 13, 2006

God and Gays

Filed under: News — chantal @ 11:20 am

There’s an interesting article today, in USAToday about the struggle that many church-goers feel between their own personal viewpoints about homosexuality and that of their respective churches.

God and gays: Churchgoers divided

My personal opinion, for the record, is that homosexuality is as normal as heterosexuality. The key word here is sexuality……it’s human, and variations within our human sexuality are as common and unique as are eye color, hair color, whether or not someone is left or right-handed. Sexuality, and the differences therein, are what make us special, wonderful and unique.

Diversity is prevalent in all areas of nature. And it’s something we should celebrate, not denigrate.

As a Christian, I fully understand and know what the Bible says about homosexuality. But as a person living in the 21st century, I also know and understand the context in which much of the Bible was written, and I do NOT believe that my disagreeing with the text in question devalues my faith in God.

I believe that the Bible has been interpreted, misinterpreted, and manipulated throughout history for the advancement of political agenda and to keep certain groups of people down. And no matter what the agenda is, somehow, someone can find a biblical justification for it (ie. slavery, the Inquisition, women’s property rights, women’s suffrage, etc.). At one point, belief in the world being round, and rotating around the Sun was considered heretical.

I honestly believe that this (the debate of homosexuality within the Christian context) is just another step in our spiritual evolution: to fully develop the heart and mind of Christ, to love each other as HE loves us, and accept one another, as we ALL can and will be accepted into the Kingdom of Heaven.

June 12, 2006

The Price of Gas…..

Filed under: News — chantal @ 9:55 am

There are many, many great articles posted to BlogCritics.org everyday. And if you haven’t checked out the site yet, I strongly suggest you do so. There’s something for everyone–articles on politics, sports, movie and music reviews, whatever you like. There are also quite a few good articles debating the issue of gay marriage.

One article that really stands out for me is by Dave Nalle. Dave is a libertarian hiding in republican clothes, and I agree with his views on various issues occasionally….and disagree, I think, more often. But what he wrote about the cost of gas, and how the current gas prices are not nearly enough, echoes a sentiment I have felt all along. Please read, understand, and learn. He makes articulate and valid points, and everyone in our federal government should heed.

The Price of Gas – Not High Enough Yet

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